saya rindu besties saya...

saya rindu kan besties saya... sila maafkan saya ini...

huwaaaa.... selepas sekian lama x jumper... after almost 2 month x jumper... akhirnyer tgah hr td... kami wat reunion.. yg kelakarnya... kami byk ddk dlm kereta n habiskan masa bersama.... we chit chat n gossiping...

area 1.30 pm besties ak jemput.. ak yg last lah.. sbb umah ak kat puchong.. kami mulakan perjalanan dgn pergi alamanda.. niat di hati nak mkn dkt taman warisan... lepas tuh ramai giler org.. kami terus balik mkn dekat bkt puchong... mkn makanan pantai timur... ader nasi kerabu nasi dagang n yg penting keropok lekor yg super sedap.... pergilah try kat rahimah kitchen berbaloi-baloi...

then perot dah kenyang meneruskan ekspedisi.. pergi ker bukit raja.... lalulah shah alam..ingatkan nak singgah seksyen 7 lepak minum.. tp x jadik plak... sbb ramai sgt org kat depan jackel tuh... biasalah sehari sebelum bermulanya ramadhan...

then seterusnyer nak pergi tmn connought nak collect member ak punyer road tax... settle dah.. seterusnyer follow jer road dah sampai key el.. lepak plak kat dataran merdeka... lalu jer sogo n maju junction mall.. ramai gleer gak org... sepanjang jln tar usah di kenang.. tp allowance tak masuk lg.. so no money no talk lah maa.....

seterunyer terus balik umah.. nasib bek jln x jem sgt.. lalu dpn mid valley then amik jln puchong balik umah ikot jln klang lama...

dah sampai puchong... lepak minum dekat restoran belanga.. babe dah lama x mengeteh mcm ney.. miss that tyme very much... akhirnyer dpt wat mcm dulu.. ingat janji kiter nak buka sama okkay...

even gossiping.. keluarlah mcm2 cerita.. termasuk citer di genting... hahah... dah lama gak ak x wat keje giler... n berceriter seperti tiada hari esok... n to mr eyes ur name disebut.. sila jgn batok2.. hahhaha... those pics.. memorable.. shy2 cat jer ak ney....

akhirnya balik umah n make sure sumer org balik before maghrib... selamat menunaikan ibadah puasa n solat terawikh....

letter for future me

dear future me,

hi. i'm you, only five years younger... important question.. are you finally happy? its strange how i value this absent happiness now but yet find ways to excuse myself from it. i hope you're no longer like me! please tell me that you're at a stage where you no longer think a man will complete yo. or that a big mac will make you fat. i hope that everything going well for you right now, and you're doing something you love. i just wanted to remind you of the biggest lesson that came from what happened during those 2 years. today is a good day. no matter how bad things get, no matter how difficult it might be to go on, no matter how pointless everything might feel, today is always going to be 'good day' because you're still here , living one more day in your life.there are other lesson from that day as well, stay close to your friends, cherish the family you have left. be a little more selective to whom you open your heart to. eat more fruit. but most of all, remember to cherish the day THAT YOU HAVE

freedom

what does freedom mean to you?
possessing the ability to follow your instincts, knowing nothing is in your way.

how do you see yourself in 10 years?
someone who still make other laugh, or an explorer...

harry potter

finally.. dpt gak tgok harry potter.. hari tuh ingat nak tgok kat genting... 3d jer ader.. cet.. mahal melampau plak.. finally ptg td dpt gak ak tgok.. hahahah...

ending yg besh... hehe... personally ak suker ending dier.. hehe.. sweet giler anak harry potter... ader satu scene yg menyentuh ht.. maser dier meet family dier b4 he really want to die... ker ak mmg ratu air mata... ceh ak tgok teater pun menangis.. hahahha...

the rest mmg best... coz ak baca novel dier.. even bkn collecter tp ak sudi gak pinjam buku tuh.. tp baca novel lg besh... same goes to citer twilight.. this yr gak kuar twilight - breaking dawn... even dah thu flow citer ttp excited nak tgok movie dier...

kedekut...

My mom said.. Never say never...'kedekut' with 3 things... firstly.. with a book.. second with foods.. and lastly with myself... heheheh... but financial planning must done from the first pays..

desire and needs... if it is before shopping.. supposed list all the desire and needs.. one step at the shopping complex with the beautiful number of discount.. all the desire will be decreasing slowly and will be added to needs prioritize... hahaha...

window shopping is nonsense for me.. if no money never ask me to go shopping.. simple right? my money.. not others money.. if i have to company someone to go shopping i will confirm that in my pursue at least have 50 ringgit.. enough for car fuel, toll, ticket movie and foods...

but I missed to do those thing with my besties.. missed you already.. since you have to extend your class up to 3 months.. reason of accreditation… miss you a lot…

usha

huwaa... semenjak dah start duk umah ney.. haruslah jari jemari ak rajin nak update blog kan... yerlah pc ngan lcd 17' ney mmg luas pemandangan... puas hati dgn streamyx... owh unifi biler lah boleh guner... hahhaha....

td br balik dr breakfast dkat 2nd tempat fav breakfast.. restaurant 'pedas' dekat tesco tuh... then gi usha tempat keje... okay sila byr tol 4.4 setiap hari yer.. kalu naik motor free.. lalalla.... naik moto jimat.. lg pown dekat jer dgn umah.. btol2 lepas summit usj yg tak best.. x per leh lepak kat 'canyon black coffee'... beshnyer....

huwaaa... allowance pown 1500 ader hati nak mkan tmpat mahal.. puasa di ruumah beshnyer.. yer lah dari zaman sekolah dah merantau school jejauh.. memuler school kat pahang.. then dipl kat perak n degree dekat melaka.. nasib bek master part time n boleh piilih sendiri.. if not negeri maner lg.. tp ak teringin gak gi sabah sarawak.. huwaaa nangish...

lepas raya leh start balik gym hokkay... yerlah badan dah nek okay.. badan ak sihat walafiat after school.. yerlah ak dah stop hackey mendadak giler... mmg makan tidur aderlah fav.. maser praktikal ak join gym for 6 month.. dah balik melaka.. just main futsal ngan badminton.. so mari lah ber 'squash' kembali.. ayuh sihat kan minda...

nak swim... biler eks.. lepas raya okay... semua lepas raya.. mmg lambat lah mid term goal ak... 'scuba diving' license... huhuhu... jet ski dah try bawak sendiri okay... jom bercuti nak.. hahahha... waaa... fulus wa tarak... plan balik lerw...

okay... skang turn ak masak k.. panggilan pulau okay.. hari ney menu... nasi tomato.. yummy...



silalah menjamu mata jer....

journey

dag dig... step seterusnyer sekarang ney career... cemaner eks.. short term goal.. carik keje yg penting wat master part time... antara calon univ aderlah um.. sbb antara univ yg dekat ngan umah.. kalu sbb yuran.. uitm plg murah.. heeheh...

td dah usha program dekat um.. master in telecommunication.. menarik.. mmg kesinambungan course ak lah.. tp ak suker psychology.. if ader rezeki ak nak usha course psychology after short term goal ak termakbul... doa2lah...

yg course psycho tue ak dah usha dekat help institute.. hehehe... ramai tanya naper tak sambung full time master... entah tp ak nak career.. n at the same time nak capai2 impian ak.. mungkin phd tu jauh... tp usaha tangga kejayaan...

td dah wat cashflow planning.. yuran master utk setahun leh guna balance wit scholar yg balance.. scholar ak ader lg sethn.. oleh sbb course ak 4 thn dah di transfer credit jd 3 years... so leh gune utk masa depan... hahaha... utk balance lg sethn.. simpan wit lah dr wit keje...

itu antara planning.. utk keje start mgu depan.. ingat nak carik umah sewa area usj.. keje pun deekat energy and utilities sime darby.. area usj 7.. so menjimatkan masa... weekend balik puchong...

then.. ckp pasal sdmap (sime darby management apprentice programmed)dah habis dah pg td.. the whole morning dgn mata ngantuk sbb semalam lepak kat goh tong jaya ngan bebudak ney.. having black coffee at genting.. best jugak.. layan jer...

n about ceremony pg td.. just biasa jer.. plg tak sangka award about bussiness communication tuh.. okay.. ak mmg blur jer masa amik award tuh.. ak tak taw dr segi aper yg dia org judge.. even test pown ader yg lebih bek ok.. what ever it is thanks jugak.. millions okay... to Sir Ijan n the english fasi too... will add you in social network later...

n... see ya...

hati

sambil ak wat post ney ak tgah dgr lagu kiss - because im a girl... mmg sedih giler.. sesuai dgn entry ak ney.... nak cakap ttg hati.. tp ak sendiri tak tahu ap yg ader dlm hati...

hati?
ko sihat tak....?
sakit yg lama dah terubat ker?

ak rasa ak memerlukan kekuatan hati lain untuk bertaut... untuk refresh kembali... tp hati ak tak pernah mati.. sbb adernnyer kasih sayang... ak sayang kan semua org.. even pd org yg sakitkan hati ini...

mata selalu tertaut... kenapa hati ini tak membenarkan mata yg tertaut jatuh ke hati... bukalah hati... huwaaa... mcm sedih nor... kan...

entahlah.. ak sentiasa mencari kekuatan dgn membaca... tak kisah lah buku ker blog ker... kekadang ak rasa ak pelik jugak.. kalau org tanya ak.. cemana ak merawat hati yg luka.. ak ckp ak gi mph kinokuniya ngan popular... tp favourite spot ak mph midvalley... sbb biler ak membaca n fokus pada bacaan ak.. ak mcm berada di alam yg len n melupakan aper yg menyakitkan hati ak.. walaupun untuk seketika...

ak sedang bersedih ker? tak juga.. tp mood ak memainkan peranan penting... di kala umur nak masuk 24 thn ney.. ak lebih suka menjadi pendengar setia... ak lebih suka melihat n berfikir dr berkata2...

ke mana pergi azah yg suka kacau org.. yg suka wat dajjal.. n suka menyembang tak kire masa... n azah yg suka wat keje giler...

yg ak tahu azah yg suka wat keje giler masih ader.. tp kegilaan dier dah tak seperti dulu.. matangkah ak? entahlah... tp kesakitan membuatkan ak mati... oh zaman remaja ak baru bermula...

ak suka mata... dgn mata ak boleh kenali ht budi n keikhlasan.. ak suker mendengar sambil melihat anak mata... tp kekadang ak yg larikan anak mata.. malu ker? tak selesa ker? hahhaha.. tp ak suker.... jd lihatlah ke mata ak n katakan sesuatu yg tak boleh dikatakan dgn kata2...

setengah hati... ak sentiasa memberikan sepenuh hati... namun jika jiwa melayang ak tak tahu nak kembalikan...

but latelly nie pelik.. mata ini.. tp separuh hat ini.. hahahah...

mata ini suka melikat sepasang mata... mungkin sepasang mata itu should be had someone yg punya... ak yakin dier dah ader someone... age should be two years more dr ak... tp ak suka melihat mata itu... setiap kali mata ini tak boleh lari dr melihat mata itu.. to mrs sepasang mata... pinjam ek mr sepasang mata... for just two days left... nak tgok mr sepasang mata... heheeh.... lets moon be my confession... those eys will be seen tonite n tomorrow...

day after... those eyes will be invisible..n being far n cant go through even search in the dreams...

hahhaha....

finally i'm back

after half year i move from blogspot to tumblr... pintu hati terbuka kembali nak bukak laman sesawang ak ney... money reason naper ak jump dr blog ker bloog... biarlah ia berlalu... bagaikan angin lalu ia pergi...