Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Officially missing you

 Dearest,

it hard to know  that you belong to someone.. and for this break you away from me... hide my love and my jealousy is too hard... pretend nothing happened is the hardest... to layan you same as others was crazy... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CKd2urlkSU8&feature=player_embedded why this too crazy... this song dedicate to you...



All I hear is raindrops
Falling on the rooftop
Oh baby tell me why'd you have to go
Cause this pain I feel
It won't go away
And today I'm officially missing you
I thought that from this heartache
I could escape
But I fronted long enough to know
There ain't no way
And today
I'm officially missing you

Oh can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially

All I do is lay around
Two ears full tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don't even know you at all
I don't know you at all
Well I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it's safe to say baby safe to say
That I'm officially missing you

Oh can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially

Well I thought I could just get over you baby
But I see that's something I just can't do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can't find a way
To let go of you

It's official
You know that I'm missing you
Yeah yes
All I hear is raindrops
And I'm officially missing you

Friday, August 02, 2013

Raya and birthday

its hard this time... it will be my first bday without abah... it will be my first raya without abah... tears is coming through...

awak... awak... awak... saya x kuat.... saya lemah... sila pertahankan saya... sila kuatkan diri saya... saya x mampu menempuh bday n raya saya sendirian.... saya lemah... apa makna bday bg saya tahun ney...apa makna raya utk saya thun ney....

Sunday, July 21, 2013

i am not taken

Agains .. and agains...

mungkin dier bukan jodoh untukku...

mencari sesuai yg sesuai dgn anda memerlukan masa.. kami berbeza.. namun ak mendoakan dia bertemu yg lebih layak untuk diri dia.. Amin

jika yg lain bila dah jumper yg serasi.. sudah berpunya pulak... wah... begitu sekali ranjau perjalanan cinta ini...

namun ak tetap pasrah... kali ini ak tak mahu mengharap apa lagi...

mungkin ada hikmahNya... ak x nampak... Allah swt x kan menguji seseorang jika di luar kemampuan hambaNya...

xoxo,
NAAH

Sunday, July 14, 2013

Otak Sebelah: Surah Ar-Rad ; Ayat 1-3.

Otak Sebelah: Surah Ar-Rad ; Ayat 1-3.: Dengan nama Allah, Yang Maha Pemurah, lagi Maha Mengasihani Alif, Laam, Miim, Raa`. Ini ialah ayat-ayat Kitab (Al-Quran) dan apa yang dit...

Saturday, July 13, 2013

APA YANG ANDA TAK TAHU TENTANG SEORANG AYAH?

Mungkin ibu lebih kerap menelefon utk menanyakan keadaan kita setiap hari.. Tapi tahukah kita, sebenarnya ayahlah yang mengingatkan ibu untuk menelefon kita? ayah selalu tanya," telefon lah anak kita tu tanya dia macam mana kerja.."

Semasa kecil, ibu lah yg lebih sering mendukung kita..Tapi tahukah kita bahawa sebaik saja ayah pulang bekerja dengan wajah yang letih ayahlah selalu menanyakan apa yg kita lakukan seharian..

Saat kita sakit atau demam, ayah sering membentak "kan ayah dah kata jangan main hujan?? kan ayah dah bagitau jangan minum air sejukk?? ". Tapi tahukah kamu bahawa ayah sangat risau.??

Ketika kita remaja, kita meminta izin untk keluar malam. Ayah dengan tegas berkata "tidak boleh!"..Sedarkah kita bahawa ayah hanya ingin menjaga kita? Kerana bagi ayah, kita adalah sesuatu yang sangat berharga.

Saat kita sudah di percayai, ayah pun melonggarkan peraturannya. Maka kita telah melanggar kepercayaannya...Maka ayah lah yang setia menunggu kita di ruang tamu dengan rasa sangat risau..
ayah marah kita.. tahukah kita yang ayah taknak apa2 terjadi dekat kita bila keluar lewat malam?

Setelah kita dewasa,ayah telah menghantar kita ke sekolah atau kolej untuk belajar..
Di saat kita memerlukan macam-macam , untuk keperluan kuliah kita, ayah hanya mengerutkan dahi.tanpa menolak, beliau memenuhinya..Saat kamu berjaya..Ayah adalah orang pertama yang berdiri dan bertepuk tangan untukmu..Ayah akan tersenyum dengan bangga.. walaupun kadang2 ayah macam buat tak tau tapi tahukah kamu sebaik kamu pergi, ayah ceritakan dekat ibu kekaguman dia terhadap kita?

Sampai ketika jodoh kita telah datang dan meminta izin untuk mengambil kita dari ayah..Ayah sangat berhati-hati mengizinkan nya..Dan akhirnya.. Saat ayah melihat kita duduk di atas pelamin bersama pasangan kita..ayah pun tersenyum bahagia..

Apa kita tahu,bahawa ayah sempat pergi ke belakang dan menangis?

Ayah menangis kerana ayah sangat bahagia..Dan dia pun berdoa "Ya Tuhan, tugasku telah selesai dgn baik..Bahagiakan lah putera puteri kecilku yg manis bersama pasangannya"..

Setelah itu ayah hanya akan menunggu kedatangan kita bersama cucu-cucunya yg sesekali dtg untuk menjenguk..Dengan rambut yg memutih dan badan yang tak lagi kuat untuk menjaga kita..

Itulah pengorbanan seorang ayah.. apakah kita masih belum sedar? masih memandang kemarahan ayah itu alasan untuk kita bencikan dia? percayalah.. dia orang yang paling rindukan kamu walaupun kerinduan ibu lebih menyerlah, tak dinafikan kerinduan ayah terhadap kita mungkin melebihi kerinduan ibu dekat kita.. kita cium pipi ibu, ayah hanya tersenyum melihat.. tahukah kita yang kita telah berlaku tidak adil terhadap ayah?? apakah ayah tak layak mendapat ciuman sama yang kita berikan dekat ibu? kamu lupa masa kamu kecil, ayah mendukung kamu dan menciumm kamu??

Ramadhan

Ramadhan berlabuh akhirnya.. dan hari ini sudah masuk hari ke 4 kita menahan lapar n dahaga... tp harapnya bukan itu sahaja pengertian ramadhan bg diri anda dan saya juga... terlalu banyak hikmahNya yang tidahk terungkap... misteri kan ramadhan ini.. bulan seribu erti...

sedang semua org bergembira melalui ramadhan... sayu hati ini... aku rindu... sepi ramadhan ini tanpa abah... sahur tahun ini sunyi.. walaupun kami tetap bangun n masak makanan baru setiap pg.. tp sunyi.. kurangnya gelak tawa... semua ini berlainan...

terawikh ku hening.. tanpa mendengar alunan suara abah mengimamkan solat terawikh kami... sepi tanpa mendengar bacaan ayat alquran setiap selepas solat... ak rindu kan imam rumah kami... sepinya ramadhan 2013....

ak cuba kuatkan diri.. ak cuba harungi.. namun pagi ini ak kalah... semalam ak teringat abah.. terbayang wajahnya... ak rindu dier lagi,,,,

ramadhan paling berat ak tempuhi..Ya Allah swt berikanlah kekuatan kepada hambaMu ini.. menempuhi dugaan ini....

Luahan rasa,
Anak yg merindu

Tuesday, July 02, 2013

REorg

Aloha...

Im sad... reorg is happening.. i was still in the places where i am... that's cool.. but my high level was changed.. then.. i supposed follow to change..

Monday, July 01, 2013

September fly away again

aholalala...

Next visit on September... check out for ticket....


Found you

Aloha muchaha...

Yeah dah jumper balik buku merah... yeah.. let's go... flying without wing... akan ku tanam kenagan di sana... x sabarnya... bayar jgn x bayar... wink wink...

Mood: Happy

xoxo
NAAH

Passport ohh passport...

Aloha..

Passport oh passport... time org nak guna time tu dier menyorok... renew... terbanglah rm150 lg... huwaaa.... demi holiday at Thailand ku turuti juwaaa....

huwaaa... jumpalah dikau... sampai expired thn depan lg.... huwaaaa.....

xoxo
NAAH

before Ramadhan come in...

Assalam...

Before ramadhan come in I would like to present this speech....

"The month Ramadhan is just around the corner, I am taking this opportunity to apologies to all the people that I have ever hurt whether intentionally or intentionally.I really hope that we could close our book today and I do not have to face you during yaumul mahsyar. Please forgive me"


Salam Ramadhan

xoxo,
NAAH

tarik tali

holla,

mamma mia... emm... whats tarik tali supposed to mean... huerrrmmm... entahlah... maksudnya jual mahal eh... humpph... pernah x korang rasa... korang suka kat org tuh... korang suka bila dier dtg... korang suka biler gelak ngan dier... sembang dengan dier... banyak benda lg... senang kata korang akan tersenyum biler dier ada... humphhh...

tp apa kan daya... dier milik org... so terpaksa lah menjarakkan diri... sbb dier milik org... xkan nak mengharapkan air mata... atau pun hanya perasaan korang jer...

kesian...

xoxo,
NAAH

Sunday, June 30, 2013

........................

Terasa lepas nyawaku saat ini. Saat kau ucap kata terakhir bagiku.Kau hancurkan mimpi-mimpiku. Tak ada rasa sedikit pun kau bersalah. Kau yang selalu berjanji akan selalu setia. Namun kini kau yang mengingkari. Ha…. tanggal 1 bulan 2 cintaku berakhir luka. Kekasih yang aku puja pergi tanpa alasan. Tanggal 1 bulan 2 tertulis dalam hatiku. Sejarah cinta yang rapuh, takkan pernah ku lupa. Percuma saja kasih sayang yang ku beri. Bila kau balas dusta, kau khianati cinta. Sia-sia pengorbanan ini.

To owner of tulang rusuk

"Don’t forget I’m just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her."

To Azah Halim

"You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about.”

To my future mr right please read

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”

Remarks: Sometimes mr right comes walking.. that's why he's late

Ismeth Zariff Salihuddin

My handsome ever niece... Baby Zarif... born on 19th April 2013... good boy... love you so much...

Zariff,
Be healthy.. nice... macho and romantic as ever...
Love you till jannah...

Love,
Happiest aunty

Arissa Safiyya


My menantu was born... Welcome Arissa Safiyya.. finally by beautiful bff Pn Dylla Abu Samah selamat melahirkan puteri ney on 29th June 2013.. Happy for you guys... you are awesome mommy... Normal ok...

Arissa,

Hopefully become good daughter to my awesome mommy Adilah... let's grown up being beautiful, stand on earth, charming and adorable.. I'll be your good aunty forever...

Love,
ur future mother in law (berangan)


Tuesday, June 25, 2013

MEASAT


ak br lepas balik hub capacity management kat sini... beshnyer suasana kat sini.. nak jd NMC kat sini boleh... ha... start berangan sudah... humph....

JOMMM APPLY....

what kind of manager you are

hola muchacha...

be manager.. x bermaksud.. u ader pangkat manager dlm satu institusi... u can be manager for yourself... if you can manage yourself better.. than you can manage your staff peeps... pernah x korang terpikir... what kind of manager you are... i pernah tanya nie dekat one of my "him".. was become pm lately...  susahkan jd manager... gaji naik.. tanggungjawab pun naik... its time just not thinking of yourself tp... kene thinking other... responsibilities...

mungkin perasaan manager to other people tu x terasa sgt.. org kata x ader feeling.. cubit peha kiri.. peha kanan terasa... hump.. i miss my ex manager.. yg dier mmg mcm tuh.. x bermaksud when we puji our staff dier akan naik lemak.. or aper ker... tp itu mcm motivasi.. tp jgn terlalu kerap... wah... manusia kan mudah menginterpretasikan sesuatu benda mengikut apa yg ingin manusia percaya.. sedangkan hakikat...

ak pun bukanlah manager yg baik tuk diri sendiri.. so ak cuba perbaiki.. mcm mana ak nak manage my heart yg suka bertindak sendiri.. please heart communicate with brain efficiently... br lah jadi logik sket.. jgn terbang keawangan sorang2... but there's nothing...

xoxo,
NAAH

its raining...

hola...

Some people said.. beshnyer mandi hujan... i lurve do that kind of stuff gaks... rasa mcm fresh sgt... wah... lepas tuh feeling lagu hindustan.. ko mampooo.... hahahaa....

BUT...

guys... jgn mandi hujan selepas jerebu.. x bek tuk kesihatan.. sbb itu hujan asid...

THAT MEANS...

if tomorrow raining... i boleh mandi larh.... hik2... but... i lurve rain.. either it can make me smile or crying... its me...

jerebu make me insane

holla...

sekarang ney rasanyer semua org dah post pasal jerebu kan... adoyai.... jerebu oh jerebu... jerabu ney menyebabkan migrain ak bertambah... arghhh stress nyer... even tho ak mmg pki mask every time ak kuar... tp........ migrain tp ado... tolong...

Sunday, June 23, 2013

Nite Peeps


Hausnyer...

mengidam ney...

Dylla Abu Samah

miss my best frenz a lot... doa kan semoga selamat bersalin sayang...

Bawa daku pergi






Bawalah daku pergi bersama mimpi2 mu... azah wake up... ur not teenagers anymore to fall so easily... but my heart say so.. to believe everything what he say... swing with his laugh... believe with his wisdom.. furthermore i loose with his squinting... laugh with all bloody joke... response with all his condemnation...

the truth his not belong to you... u know he truth colour.. WAKE UP!!!

xoxo
NAAH

My Zara Sofea



migrain n feverish

Hi all...



lamanya x tulis blog... byk luahan hati ney... but sekarang kita citer pasal demam... as usual mmg diperakui... ak mmg mudah dijangkiti.. season berubah pun ak demam... thats me... kena panas paler pening.. oleh kerana mmg sedar kekurangan diri... sedia kan payung sebelum hujan... last week... he fever... n ak mmg x sangka dier attent meeting... tanggungjawab kan... bukan senang nak jd pm kan... then when pergi mkn.. ha.... bersin... n keesokan... mcm biler tgok langit mendung.. korang mesti kata akan hujan... seperti ramalan.. esoknya ak demam... tp datang kerja jugak.. sbb demam menyerang maser masuk air cond kat office... terus pap... sejuk satu badan... sejoook nyer... tp apa nk dikata...

migrain pasti akan menyusul pd mlmnyer... tp kan esok ader monthly meeting... terpaksa gagah...

budak demam,
NAAH

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

trainee awesome

dearest,

today last day bdk trainee kat department ak.. sedihnya dia org x der... mesti rindu nak launch.. kuar lepak.. hangout ngan dia org..

will miss them lot...

kenangan.. xkan dilupakan..

dear our eny n wany,

hopefully korang berjaya dalam aper jua cabaran n halangan yg menimpa.. akak mendoakan yg terbaik tuk korang... kadang2 hidup ini penuh keajaiban n juga kejutan... warna warni kehidupan menyebabkan kita dapat terus bertahan...

xoxo
NAAH

si tukang tilik

Dearest,

hari ney ak terjumpa si tukang tilik.. naper ak panggil dier tukang tilik.. sbb maser pergi kaunter aeon nak beli iphone member den ney... si penjual kind of yg boleh baca perangai org ikut muka n bday kot...

ttg ak.. dier kater ak duit senang kuar senang masuk.. betul gaks tuh.. n ak ney senang kene tipu.. n ak ney susah serik... n suruh ak beware kalu x ak akan diperbodohkan... so ilmu pengetahuan tunjang utama... n senang broken heart...

xtau percaya ker x.. hohoho si tukang tilik...

xoxo
NAAH

mencari

Dearest,

Omaii omaii... someone had crush on me... gosh... he came in the right time... di kala ak pasrah... si harimau sudah mempunyai singanya... dia dtg.. actually kan.. memuler rasa mcm dia ney poyo jer... tp biler dah kenal lama... org nyer jaga solatnyer... baik.. bertanggungjawab.... n stop!... br kenal k...

tp finally ak dah declare after 1 month n half dier memujuk n merajuk bagai memikat si hati batu cam ak.. emmm... he's something... tetapi masih awal kah persoalan ini...

mari kiter tunggu...n lihat..

xoxo
NAAH

Saturday, April 27, 2013

Takziah

Dear Blog,

air mata ak hampir menitis... bila ak ingin mulakan coretan kali ini... Ya Allah, ak masih rindu akan dia... Abah, setiap kali melewati jalan menuju pusaramu ak gagal menahan air mata...

Pemergianmu sangat bererti.. air mata ttp menitis setiap kali ak mendengar alunan lagu dr aeman... ak rindu.. ak pasrah.. ak redha.. tp kenangan tidak dpt ak lupakan... ku sedekahkan al fatihah untuk mu.. moga abah tenang di sana...

diri ini masih tidak lg boleh menceritakan apa pun.. setiap kali ak cuba tabah.. namun di penghujung hari ak kalah... air mata kenapa kau terlalu lemah.. kenapa pantas sgt kau jatuh menyembah bumi...

ak rindu...
NAAH

2008 - 2012 in memories

Dear blog, some people said.. orang yg masih ingat kenangan silam.. dier x dapat lupakannya... aku kah... entah lah... secara jujurnya ak masih ingat dier lagi...5 years bukan sekejap.. lama kot... dia mengajar ak untuk jatuh cinta.. dia juga mengajar ak sakit nya putus cinta... pengenalan kami bermula dgn satu misscalled... mungkin masa tuh.. n ak yakin dier ader girlfren lg masa tuh... bdk usm penang.. ak ker merampas.. bukan.. dier yg mulakan semuanya.. dr mesej.. terus ke telefon.. bersambung pergi mkn.. n segala kenangan... kalu nak cerita sampai 20-30 page pun x cukup kot... 5 years.. he's always there for me.. either support or financial.. marah gaduh gembira seronok n berseronok kami hadapi bersama.. bas ker motor hingga masing2 berkereta... dia n ak dunia kami.. we're having blog together... we're share our dream... betapa pantas kami bersama... n betapa pantas kami berpisah... kerana org ke 3.. kami retak menanti belah.. hanya kurang selangkah untuk kami bersama hingga ke hujung usia... namun mungkin bukan jodoh kami.. memang menipu jk hati x terguris.. even selepas hampir setahun we're break.. but bila tgok dier dgn org yg pisahkan kami.. otak jahat n bisikan syaitan ttp berbisik... astaghfirullah... tabahkan hati... tabahkan hati mu... xoxo, NAAH

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Hosp Selayang

Incident 1- tolong oku beli air kat vending machine.
Masa nak balik.. tunggu angah dekat luar dekat vending machine... Ader one chinesse kid.. jln tempang n belakang dier ader bonggol... Kesian sgt... Tolong dier beli air.. byk jugak duet seringgit dier.. so tlg dier pilih air.. pandai ckp english taw... Beli mango apple n ice lemon tea...

Incident 2- tolong remaja cari mak hilang...
Tempat yg sama.. waktu yg sama... Ader sorang budak remaja lelaki.. kehilangan mak yg br lepas bersalin amek ubat... Cian dier... Dlm area form 4 kot..

Semua ceritera 1 jam... Masa nak balik dr hospital selayang...

Monster Burger

Nyum... Balik from selayang hospital dpt mkn monster burger special cheese... Tp x habis kott... Specel rm10... Berbaloi boleh mkn 3 org kott...

Sayonara BuGgY

Wah... Buggy dah pergi ker tuan baru... Sedihnyer....

Sunday, February 03, 2013

WXV5887

Plg x sangka sekali... 31.12.2012... Masa tuh ma suh usha tgok mana kereta yg berkenan jer... Mula2 pergi proton..  berkenan kat preve dah... Nk beli neo... Mahallah... Otw balik sajer lalu kat perodua... Tetiber myvi se ader promotion rebate 2000... Terus booking... Warna kuning...

Memuler xderlah nk tempah nombor 5887 tuh... Masa sign agreement... Sajer tanya terus tmpah... Haish... Kereta ney mmg penuh kezutan...

PPUM

From date 21.12.2012... Dah menjadi hari ker 44 dekat hosp... Hopefully hari esok memberi sinar yg lebih terang... Amin...

2013

Dah berabuk pun laman sesawang ney... Nak wat cemaner... Redha dgn tekanan kerja... Relationship yg entah aper2 ntah... Rasa mcm nak bersawang balik lepas tgok... Cerita istanbul ak dtg... Br menyingkap btapa besh sebenarnya nak berblog balik... Mari kita mulakan kembali rasa teruja itu....

Xoxo!
A